Lost

So as you can see by the title I feel a little lost at the moment
I'm not sure why
I know in my head everything that is true
that God is good
that He has everything under control
and even tonight the lord answered our prayers with sending us a worship leader for camp
but not everything feels that way
I know that we can't go on our feelings... but they are real
I don't know where I'm going
Every time I feel like I get an idea of where to go ro what to do it ends
and honestly I feel like the lord ends it
all of my dreams and aspirations are gone
every time i get an email talking about the middle east- it makes me sick
i feel like there is no where to go
and even if there was it would be wrong anyway

i just don'r know
whatever happened to passion?
and dreams...

purpose?

As much as I "know" what my purpose is
I fee like I get farther and farther from fulfilling it
i'm stuck
i'm lost

everything i though to be good and right
is gone or dying
i'm sick of it

but there is nothing else to do
but just keep going
step by step
morning by morning

Lord?
I'm just asking you do something...
I'm empty and ugly
and just done

in all honesty i'm giving up
i don't know what else to do